Dont force something that isnt there...

Dont try and force something that isnt there. I tried to work on a friendship for 4 years and now I can barely stand to look at that person. If I would have let it go sooner, I would have more good memories than bad, but I didnt. I wanted it to work so badly, that I started to change myself and sacrifice some of the things I liked, so that me and her could have no difference, nothing standing in between us and a productive friendship. Although I always tried to work things out, she never met me half way. Now I am in what I like to call, the repair stage. I am going back to being the me I was before she was there to affect me. I like that person, I dont like who she made me want to be. I always have to pick up the pieces and put them back together. She just gets to sit there, broken for a while, until I can fix her up. I am done with that! Maybe sometimes I dont want to be the hammer : strong, reliable, a hard worker. Sometimes I want to be the the glass pieces and just be fragile. But you know what, I am better than her and I am stronger than her, and I will not falter. I am the best I can be and you know what? THAT IS BETTER THAN GLASS, BECAUSE I WILL NOT SHATTER WHEN I GET THROWN AROUND, I WILL STAY STRONG AND IN ONE PIECE, AND I CAN USE WHAT I HAVE TO BUILD A STRONGER FRIENDSHIP WITH SOMEONE WHO CARES. I may not get to be an irresponsible baby, but right now, at this time in my life, Im okay with that.

Do you think that I am fading into the meaninglessness of internet blogging? I mean, its not like any of you read my blogs anyways, but...I dont want to be that girl who talks about parties instead of politics. So IM going to try to make my blogs more meaningful and YOU are gonna try reading them more often than not, okay? Anyways, I think nature is beautiful, scenery and tree huggers make me exuberant! I love the blue skies, even though some gray has begun to stream in. People make me smile when they are funny or have any common distaste. I love life! My blogs will be meaningful! Until next time,

Madison

Party Central

My best friend, let's just call her Macy for privacy reasons...Macy is having a super cool party. There is gonna be pizza, water balloons, dancing...everything! Well the next day we are going to an indoor swimming pool, but i am not the hottest swimmer in the world! I still want to go and I am still going to try my hardest to do so... Well there is also this mega brat that is going, lets just call her shay...well shay thinks its funny to prey on the insecure and for that reason and many others that coexist with it, i dont like "it"(her). But heres the irony of the story...she called Macy "drunk ova makeup" and a "hoe" and then had an emotional breakdown so that she could still go to the party! That would be my inrony ): Heres hers: while she was still disinvited they made seating arrangments in the two cars...macy's car is all filled up and shay sure as heck cant come in mine, so right now, it looks like shes walking to the pool! Macy suggested that we "strap her to the hood and hope that she doesnt tumble into traffic" Well, maybe, just maybe I could give shayt a ride. JK! Had you fooled (: Soooooo not happening! Peace out (: