Dont try and force something that isnt there. I tried to work on a friendship for 4 years and now I can barely stand to look at that person. If I would have let it go sooner, I would have more good memories than bad, but I didnt. I wanted it to work so badly, that I started to change myself and sacrifice some of the things I liked, so that me and her could have no difference, nothing standing in between us and a productive friendship. Although I always tried to work things out, she never met me half way. Now I am in what I like to call, the repair stage. I am going back to being the me I was before she was there to affect me. I like that person, I dont like who she made me want to be. I always have to pick up the pieces and put them back together. She just gets to sit there, broken for a while, until I can fix her up. I am done with that! Maybe sometimes I dont want to be the hammer : strong, reliable, a hard worker. Sometimes I want to be the the glass pieces and just be fragile. But you know what, I am better than her and I am stronger than her, and I will not falter. I am the best I can be and you know what? THAT IS BETTER THAN GLASS, BECAUSE I WILL NOT SHATTER WHEN I GET THROWN AROUND, I WILL STAY STRONG AND IN ONE PIECE, AND I CAN USE WHAT I HAVE TO BUILD A STRONGER FRIENDSHIP WITH SOMEONE WHO CARES. I may not get to be an irresponsible baby, but right now, at this time in my life, Im okay with that.
